Jim: The question this evening has to do with emotions. We recognize
love and fear as being polar opposites and we’re wondering if all the
other emotions, such as jealousy, anger, doubt, greed, gluttony and so
forth are some sort of a mixture of fear with love and if there is
positive use that we can make of these supposedly negative emotions. Is
there some benefit we can get from working with these emotions? What
spiritual principles can we use to look at the various emotions that we
come across in our daily lives?
(Carla channeling)
We are those of the principle of Q’uo. Greetings in the love and in
the light of the one infinite Creator, in whose service we come to you
this evening. Thank you for calling us to your circle of seeking this
evening. It is a privilege to be called and we are most happy to share
our thoughts with you on the subject of emotions, love and fear.
As always, however, before we begin we would ask of each of you who
hears or reads these words that you use your powers of discrimination
and discernment in choosing which thoughts of ours you might wish to use
as resources for your spiritual journey. We would ask that you follow
the path of resonance. And if ideas do not resonate to you then please
leave them behind without a second thought. We would not wish to be a
stumbling block to you but only a resource. We thank you for this
consideration.
You asked this evening concerning emotions. We find that among your
people, emotions are often unappreciated and dishonored by those who
would wish to live a spiritually oriented life. From our perspective,
however, the emotions that you feel are gifts of enormous worth. Whereas
the mind moves from thought to thought, generally governed by logic and
the intellect, the heart moves from emotion to emotion, generally with
no intellectual component whatsoever. For emotions are those gifts of
the heart that stem from the very depths and roots of your
consciousness.
Thusly, when you are attempting to think about emotions, you are
attempting to think about that which has its reality in time/space, for
[emotions] come from your consciousness rather than your intellect or
mentality. Each person has a different and unique mentality and
personality. However, as members of the tribe of humankind on your
planet in third density, you share one consciousness. Your jealousy and
another’s jealousy has the same energy. Your love and another’s love of a
certain frequency has the same energy. It is emotions rather than
thoughts which unite your people.
Now, in the roots of consciousness which this instrument calls the
archetypal mind, the emotions can be mapped, much as the waterways of
your continent can be mapped. There are rivers of emotions of various
kinds, both those emotions you would call positive, such as joy, bliss
and happiness, and emotions you would call negative, such as greed,
gluttony and lust. Yet each emotion flows from its most distorted or
extreme manifestation, through a succession of removals of distortion,
until at last they all empty into the ocean that you would call the
Logos or unconditional love or bliss.
This instrument has been attempting to define emotions along some
sort of a yardstick or ruler attempting to measure emotions by the ratio
of love to fear, this instrument having posited that love and fear are
the fundamental opposites of emotion. [1] And we would suggest that
while there is an element of truth in this thought, that it attempts to
corral and compress the 360 degrees of emotions into a two-dimensional,
straight line. This attempt in itself is a distortion of the model,
shall we say, which we might suggest to be more useful for thinking
about emotions.
In some ways, emotions can be perceived in terms of complementary
colors. Those who wish to decorate their walls, for instance, will find a
color wheel in which complementary colors are shown. And various
contrasts are seen that are dynamic opposites. We find this wheel of
color concept to be of use in talking about emotions.
However, it is not correct, in our humble opinion, to attempt to
attach significance to the colors of emotions in that, for instance, it
is said that someone is feeling “blue,” and there may well be a
relationship betwixt that color or feeling which is blueness and that
emotion. However, it is not valid to link “feeling blue” to the blue ray
or the blue energy center, any more than a person who is “yellow” is
operating from the yellow ray, or a person who is “green with envy” is
operating from the heart chakra. In this sense there is no connection
betwixt color and the emotions. They cannot be attached to any one
chakra or ray. It is, however, a useful exercise when thinking about
emotions to think of complementary colors and the track along which a
certain kind of emotion might fall, so that one might begin to develop a
wheel of emotions.
One way to look at emotions is to see where the love is in the
emotion. For instance, if one considers the emotion of jealousy, the
emotion of love is clearly seen, in that the object which has inspired
one’s jealousy is greatly loved. Therefore, the jealousy has love at its
heart, yet [it is] tinged by the fear of the loss of that love.
[Therefore] the energy of the love becomes quite different from the
original free and easy feeling of love.
We would suggest that there are complementary emotions, so that one
may take radii out from the center of the wheel of emotions which is
unconditional love, that love which this instrument would say is
Christlike or which carries Christ Consciousness.
From that original love or that sea of bliss in the archetypal mind
there spring forth the natural rays all around the 360 degrees of
personhood.
Another way to evaluate emotions is to look at the faculty of will,
desire or expectation. The clearest way to approach emotion, living
day-to-day, would be to remain transparent and unattached to the outcome
of one’s objects of desire or will or one’s expectations. However, it
is precisely the inability of the individual within incarnation to
remain unattached to outcomes which creates the bulk of distorted
emotional reactions. Thusly, if one loved another purely and without
attachment of any kind, and that object of love chose to move into
relationship with another self beside the self, in the unattached entity
this would be only a source of joy, knowing that the other self that is
so beloved was doing something that he or she enjoyed. However, it is
seldom that entities are unattached in this way.
If one looks at the meat of the spiritual life, it is clear that it
is a blessing that the entity within incarnation is attached to outcomes
and has distortions and expectations and desires, because these
elements create the potential for feeling emotions and engaging
consciousness in new and different ways.
Another element which is important to consider when looking at
emotions is that faculty which you call judgment. The seeker who feels
surface emotions tends to be non-judgmental if the emotions seem
positive but quite judgmental if one’s own emotions seem to be from the
shadow side of the self and express the darkness within. Now, if one
were looking at a color wheel one would not judge the dark colors as
inferior to the lighter colors but would see that all the range of
colors would be needed to create all pleasing harmony within one’s color
scheme. One would not shun the use of the notes of brown and gray and
black and navy blue, for instance, as opposed to the pastels and the
lighter colors in their earth tones such as the light tan, the light
gray, and so forth. All of these colors equally are valued in building
an environment which is pleasing to you personally.
As the spiritual seeker becomes more mature, each experience is
another opportunity to work with a surface emotion and to refine or
purify that emotion by offering it up as a spontaneous and pure feeling,
without judgment, without asking the self to be one who feels only the
positive emotions. Each emotion starts out, in the immature entity, as
that which is confused and chaotic and has a high degree of static or
noise as opposed to signal. Consequently, as a spiritual seeker, each
time an emotion arises you are working to feel it without shrinking from
it or reaching towards it, the goal being not to do anything with the
emotion except to allow it to sink into the consciousness of the present
moment.
As you give respect and honor to surface emotions you allow them the
spaciousness to begin to filter down past the first levels of
impulsivity and self-judgment. And as you allow yourself the space and
the time for this emotion to tell its story to you, you are sinking into
the roots of your own consciousness and beginning to be able to feel
each emotion as a more distinct, pure and clarified color, shall we say.
It is possible, indeed probable, that some sort of ongoing
contemplation of the archetypal mind may help the seeker to evaluate and
think about the experiences of emotion that he has. Within the glyph of
the Tree of Life, for instance, there are various emotions that are
linked to the middle pillar, the feminine pillar, and the masculine
pillar. It might be interesting to contemplate where the emotions that
you experience day-by-day might fit on that Tree of Life glyph. [2]
Similarly, if one has a bent towards astrology, the ins and outs of
the various signs and houses are to some a real aid and resource when
working with understanding one’s emotions.
Lastly, as this particular group has done in the past, there is the
possibility of gazing at the world of emotion and the nature of
consciousness by working with the twenty-two images of the tarot. [3] As
one looks at each concept complex, one may begin to see relationships
betwixt various emotions.
This is subtle work, my friends, and the nature of consciousness is
that of paradox, mystery and infinity, so that you do not have the
comfort which the intellect might offer of finding neat and tidy
explanations or orders to emotions within one’s life or within the
creation of the infinite One. Rather, emotion, like the rivers and lakes
of your planet, is an ever flowing, ever changing, ever evolving water
system, shall we say, or circulation system of the consciousness of the
one Creator.
You ask what spiritual principles can be used to think about emotion
and we would offer you the principle of unity. You are all one. You do
share an instinctual, fundamental and authentic awareness of the stuff
of emotion. This is something that is trustworthy—that you have emotions
in common with each other. There is no emotion that you can feel that
others have not felt before you and will not feel after you.
In a way, emotions have more coherence than the workings of the
intellect which would seem to be so much more coherent because of the
nature of logic. However, logic can be spun to create sophistic
rationales for anything desired, whereas emotions are stubbornly what
they are. One may attempt to tamper with an emotion to make it different
than it is, yet it is not in tampering [with emotions], or attempting
to adjust emotions that you do not prefer, that create a skillful
approach to emotion. Rather, it is to the one who trusts each and every
emotion enough to give it space and time in which to articulate itself
within your awareness that emotions shall begin to offer you the reward
of that feeling of oneself that goes beyond the linear.
You are infinite beings. And yet on the surface of the mind there is a
far more pale and watery feeling to the emotions of the day than you
are able to experience when you stick with gazing at each and every
emotion with respect and the lack of judgment.
The one known as L was saying earlier that there were those she met
in the course of doing her job and her service to others who called up
from within her feelings of really bright anger. What was she to do with
this sudden and impulsive anger? Was she to attempt to squash it or to
repress it? Was she to give it so much honor that she expressed that
anger in ways that were not of service to others? How was she to handle
feeling this sudden, impulsive anger? This occurs time and time again in
the course of each and every day for each and every spiritual seeker.
And it would seem that there is no useful function for the negative
emotions, whereas the positive emotions such as joy, admiration and love
of a romantic or friendly nature are feel-good emotions that are hardly
ever evaluated or judged. Nevertheless, it is very helpful when working
with positive emotions to pay attention to them also. For just like the
negative emotions, the surface of a positive emotion is only the
beginning of its intensity, its clarity and its vitality, and it is to
the spiritual seeker who focuses on such surface emotions such as joy
and allows them to expand and, as we said before, to tell their story
around the campfire of the self as it experiences itself that the gift
of positive emotions shall come.
Likewise, when experiencing the seemingly negative or shadow emotions
it is quite useful to behold and allow the awareness of these surface
emotions to remain, not pushing them away because they are uncomfortable
to behold, not saying, “Well, this can’t be me, I would never be so
negative,” but rather gazing at this dark color of emotion and asking it
to clarify, to refine itself, to become more pure.
The one known as L asked, “Well, what use are negative emotions? Can I
use them?” We would suggest that the value of even the darkest seeming
emotion is equal to the value of the most seemingly positive emotion in
that it is a valid and honored part of all that there is. You are
everything, every emotion. And each emotion has its place in creating of
you within incarnation a less and less unbalanced and distorted
expression, if you will, of the one Creator, for each of you is an
expression of the one Creator.
As we have said through this instrument many times, it is the darker
emotions, such as anger, that when allowed to become refined and
purified create the grit, the muscle, the determination, the energy of
enduring and persevering and winning through to the goals of your
incarnation. If you do not have that driving energy that is expressed in
anger within you in a more purified and refined state, you do not have
the energy to be patient with the self as it is refined in the athanor
or the furnace of experience.
This instrument was working with a quote from the Holy Bible earlier
today that said that the one known as Jesus the Christ did not come into
the world to judge the world, but that the world through him might be
saved. [4] We would suggest that you be as merciful with yourself when
working with negative emotions as would the one known as Jesus be. He
was not interested in working with those who were free of error; he was
interested in working with those who were distorted, who were hurting,
who were suffering, who were in the darkness of confusion. Let that
climate of complete non-judgment be your working attitude as you allow
each emotion its proper place in your consciousness, and as you ask of
yourself that you provide a continuing environment within yourself in
which honored and respected emotions may gradually be purified and
refined.
Your goal, then, is not to balance emotions until here is no emotion,
but to experience each emotion in ways which allow those emotions to go
from being muddy and confused to a place where each emotion is a
jewel-tone. Gems come in all colors from black to white and everything
in between. And the beauty of each is unique to that particular gem.
Your emotions are gemlike. And when you have been able to allow the murk
and the mud and the impulsivity gradually to evaporate from the heart
and essence of each emotion, you are as one who has dug in the ore to
mine those gems of self which you have in common with all those of your
fellow humans. And as those energies within you are purified, there is
less and less distortion [and] more and more balance, and less and less
of that component of fear which we began by discussing. For it is indeed
a valid observation that the one great original Thought is the emotion
that is at the heart of every emotion, positive or negative. This is a
trustworthy statement as far as we know. Every shade of emotion has its
root in love, love unconditional, love un-judging, utter and absolute
love. The oftener that you are able, at the end of working with
emotions, to come back to love and to allow that love to overflow all
other considerations, the stronger you shall be in being able to do this
work of allowing the self to bloom.
Each of you is like a flower. And certainly if one looks at each
entity’s energy body, each chakra is like a flower of a certain shape
and of a certain potential for becoming more brilliant, more
many-petaled and fuller of bloom. So think of working with your emotions
as if you were working with the energies of dancing or music or poetry.
Allow boundaries to collapse, so that you begin to feel the
connections between positive and negative emotions. As you become more
fearless and flexible in working with balancing each emotion, you are
allowing those chakras of your energy body to become more brilliant,
more fully petaled, more articulated and more powerful.
We would conclude this observation of emotions with the concept of
power. In an entity who is not attempting to seek spiritually or to find
out by some way who he is and why he is here, the emotions shall
generally remain fairly muddy and un-clarified, for there is really no
incentive for one who does not realize the gifts that emotions represent
to do the work necessary to begin to refine and purify these authentic
and infinitely meaningful feelings that are the rays of your essential
beingness as a creature of love.
(Side one of tape ends.)
(Carla channeling)
We have mentioned the balancing exercise many times through this
instrument, and we would refer to it once again briefly for it is a very
useful way to work with emotions.
The nature of all that is not the one original Thought is to be
distorted. Distortion is not a bad word. Distortion is not an insulting
word. There is distortion in all manifestation, even the highest and
best you can imagine. If there were no distortion, there would be no
creation, for the creation itself, in its manifested aspect, is a series
of nested distortions. Thusly, one is not attempting to remove
distortion completely, but rather to allow it to become more coherent;
to change stuttering and muddy colors to laser lights and jewels.
The work of the balance exercise is simply to find each trigger which
moved you this day from a certain default balance to an unbalanced or
distorted reaction, whether it was for positive or negative, so-called.
Looking at those things within the self, looking at the process by
which one was pulled off center, tells you about yourself. And as you
allow those feelings to be viewed again and even to be intensified and
then, as you allow the seemingly opposite emotion to come, as a
complementary color would be seen across the color wheel, you lessen
distortion within yourself by encouraging the equal respect given to
both the seemingly negative and the seemingly positive.
As we said before, this is subtle work, but it is the work that you
are here to do in terms of learning about yourself, learning who you
are; in beginning to feel an authenticity of being that is more and more
profound, so that you are a sturdier warrior of the light than you were
before. Every emotion has its place. The surface of emotions is only
the beginning of them.
We wish you the very best of journeys of exploration as you work with
these emotions to learn of each and every essence that makes you who
you are. You will find that all emotions, once they have been purified,
work in harmony to create of you a human being. The nature of the human
is to be ethically oriented and to desire to serve, to love and to know.
Trust your emotions to help you learn these things. And as you relate
to others, trust the emotions in them that resonate with your own in
terms of dealing with each entity at the soul level.
Before we leave this instrument we would ask if there is a query, or a
follow-up to this question. We are those of Q’uo.
(Pause)
Since we seemed to have exhausted the queries within this group this
evening, then it falls to us to release this connection to this
instrument and to this group. We would like to thank you again for
calling us to your circle of seeking. It has been a joy and we are so
grateful to each of you for crafting time and space in your very busy
lives in order to come and seek for truth together. The sacred space
that you have created with your desire and your longing is a stunningly
beautiful thing and we thank you for that also.
We leave this instrument and this group in the love and in the light
of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as the principle of
Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai vasu.
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From Victim to Creator – Part 2
In Part 1 of this series I shared with you the final and defining moment of how, in October 2008, I came to decide to be the creator of my own reality.Obviously there was a lifetime of events that lead up to this moment and I am now still busy discovering what it means to make that decision.And that is what I want to share with you in this post – what DOES it mean to decide that you are the creator of your own reality?If you were to claim for yourself that you are “an eternal, immortal, creator being of infinite power” then what should you create?
Simply put, I cannot see that it is possible to make a buck in the world of business and still have your integrity in tact.
I found I could also no longer countenance all the endless chasing after money.All the polishing of egos and kow-towing that had to be done to people that I would otherwise not want to spend even a moment’s time with.All the stress and all the worry, all in the interests of a few pennies in my own pocket while I made strangers that I would never even meet much, much richer; the invisible owners of the corporation called “shareholders” that were the beneficiaries of everyone’s labour.
And that was just one area of the life I was living that was not right for me.There were many.Everywhere I looked I asked myself, “if I am a creator being, is THIS what I want to create?”And the answer was almost always “no”.
I didn’t want the city anymore with its mad traffic and all the aggression, crime and frustration.I didn’t want the inauthentic friends.I didn’t want the non-stop social events and wild parties that always ended with emptiness.I became disconnected from all the disconnect.
So the question arose - if this was not what I wanted to create then what DID I want?Given that I now knew for sure I did not want to continue living the life I was living, this was obviously a question that was in urgent need of answering.
Fortunately, I have a higher-self that is very kind to me.By the time I was ready to claim my own creator-status I had already found a way to show myself, in the clearest way imaginable, exactly what I wanted to create.Even though I didn’t know this was what I was being shown at the time.Does that sound cryptic?Allow me to explain:
In April of 2008 (which was six months before that final, momentous decision), Lisa and I were on holiday in an area of my country called The Garden Route. We have always loved it there and had holidayed there every single year for the past 15 years.It’s mainly the indigenous Tsitsikamma (pronounced Tzi-tzee-karma) forests on the slopes of the Outeniqua Mountains (pronounced Oh-ten-ick-wah) that draw us there.But there is something very special about the whole area.On this particular holiday we experienced something that changed us both forever.It occurred while we were on a hike in a particularly beautiful and unspoiled area.At some point the trail took us up a hill, out of the forests and onto a small plateau overlooking a spectacularly beautiful valley with a small river winding its way along the bottom running into the sea in the distance.On any given day, this would be the kind of view that I would stop and marvel at.It certainly was beautiful.But on that particular day, standing there looking across the valley at the forested mountains in the distance, something changed.The world around me was suddenly impossibly beautiful.Now, I could try to describe it – I could wax lyrical about the way the sun poured its light down on the earth like golden syrup.I could tell you that each leaf of every single tree looked like a perfect emerald jewel and that the wind through the grass set up a vibration that sang and hummed in my soul.I could tell you that I believed I could see with absolute and perfect clarity every single leaf and blade of grass right the way to the distant horizon.I could tell you about the quality of the air – that it had become gelid with the density of pure life essence that surrounded and interpenetrated me and all that was around me.I could throw pages and pages of such words at you in my desperate attempt to share with you the pure transcendent bliss of that moment and always I would feel like I am not even scratching the surface of what that moment was like.Perhaps I should simply say that I believe I saw God in the very Life of the forest on that day.My heart was opened and a portal was made there, through which I saw the world.For the very first time ever I really SAW.I saw with my heart and my soul instead of my eyes and my mind.And it was beautiful.It was more beautiful than I could imagine anything ever being.This amazing, mystical experience was beyond my ability to even begin to make sense of.I stood.I stared.I was awed.I felt.I knew.I belonged.
Striving for comprehension my mind eventually came up with an idea of what to do with this experience.It sent the thought out to the forest saying: “I see you!I love you!Will you accept us as custodians?”
And then I gained the presence of mind to wonder what had happened to Lisa.I had no idea how much time had passed since I had last spoken to her as we huffed and puffed up the steep slope.I turned to look for her.She was a few metres away, down on her knees with her back turned to me.I noticed she was shaking.As I approached her I realised she was crying.I got closer and I heard her saying over and over again; “yes… yes… yes…”
In that moment, it felt to me like she was answering my question on behalf of the forest.Or maybe the forest had asked her that same question and she was answering.It felt like Lisa and the whole of the forest and I were all one being and we were all speaking the same question and answer to ourselves:“Will you accept us as custodians?Yes… yes… yes.”*
After sometime – I have no idea how long – we noticed it was getting late and we had some distance to walk to get back to the car.Reluctantly, but with out hearts full, we walked back to the car in a kind of euphoric, blissful semi-trance.We both knew something life-changing had happened but had no way to make sense of it.
I am deeply grateful that Lisa experienced this with me.Partly because experiencing it alone would have made it altogether less meaningful but more so because if I had experienced this alone I would have known that I was now on a journey without her.An experience like this changes you.You are no longer the same person you were before such an event.Everything changes.Certainly your life path and all the things you have previously valued are substantially re-arranged.
And so it was that, six months later, when I hit the crisis which caused me to finally choose to release my own victim status and to begin to claim my own creator-status instead, I was ready.I won’t lie to you, I had a great deal of difficultly and discomfort letting go of victim in all its guises.I am STILL busy with the vestiges of that process.But at least I knew one thing… the most important thing… the thing that would pull me forward from then on.I knew that I wanted to create a life that brought me always to that state of connection that I had felt on the crest of the hill in the Outeniqua Mountains.I knew that I wanted to create myself as a part of that blissful Oneness.I knew I wanted to release those things that drove me into a state of separation and disconnect.I wanted the Light, the Life and the Love.I wanted it all.I know now that what Lisa and I experienced there was a true mystical experience.A truly transcendent moment.It was a moment of perfect Oneness with All That Is.And since experiencing that, the first time, I have known that what I wanted more than anything was to find my way to a permanent experience of that.
It was also clear to me that my Soul had a plan for me and that the forests of the Outeniqua Mountains were a vital part of that plan.I am deeply grateful to The One that Lisa felt exactly the same way.
And that is what we set about doing.
As I write this blog post we have just taken delivery of a huge stack of cardboard boxes.We are just about to begin packing up those of our possessions that are going with us in our move to the Outeniqua Mountains.Yes, we are actually doing it.We are moving.Lisa resigned her job.Would you believe it if I told you that, just before she resigned, she was offered a very attractive position in the South of France?Big money and all the ego-inducements that a sparkling career-path can offer.She turned it down.Would you believe it if I told you that I gave my business away?Two of my employees had shown such passion and commitment to the business that my heart told me that the right thing to do would be to give them the business.I did a six-month hand-over during which time I trained them in every aspect of the operation and then I walked away.Since then Lisa and I have sold our house, sold her zooty little BMW Z3 and are busy selling my Hyundai Tiburon.We are exiting all that.We have found our perfect piece of paradise in the mountains and we are in the process of buying it.As soon as my car sells, we’ll be be replacing it with a 4x4 pickup.We have cashed in all our investments and pulled ourselves out of all the fear based financial tools like insurance and retirement funds.These things are just not relevant to us anymore.We have pared down and simplified every aspect of our lives.The wallet-full of plastic in sharp metallic colours was taken back to the bank for shredding and accounts were closed.We now have one card and one bank account.We even have just one mobile phone between us.No store cards.No open contracts for anything with anyone.The load is light and we are free.
And so I am in strange place.My old life is over.It is behind me.All sorted out and tied off with a bow.And yet I am not dead.I am still here and very much more alive than I have ever been before.At age forty, I feel more vital and full of life than I have ever felt.I feel ready to begin again.I am ready to birth myself into a new life.But this time will be different.This birth will not start with me having to go through forgetting and physical birth and then learning how to be a human in a human society.Instead I will start knowing who I am and why I am here.I choose the stage setting to be the beauty and splendour of the Outeniqua Mountains.I choose to have the curtains go up with me and withmy angel-light lady-love and our dogs finding ourselves in a timber home on our land in the forest.I choose to have the main thrust of the plot of my story revolve around my journey Home.The quest to find my way back to the endless love and unspeakable bliss that calls to me from within my heart.Lisa and I briefly glimpsed it on that day but now I will find my way Home to permanent relationship with it.And when I find it next I know I will not just find a forest there.I will find all of Life there.And I will find You there too.
*If you want to read Lisa’s perspective on this mystical experience you can find her blog posting here.
In Part 3 of this series I will share with you the details of the life I am choosing to create and the spiritual significance of these new choices.You are invited to take a free membership of my website if you’d like to be updated on when new blog-posts are made. You will then also be able to leave comments on blog-posts.
Comment discussion - I'd really like to know if you have had a mystical experience of your own - and if so how this has changed your life. Something else I'd be keen to know is if you have given thought to the life you would create if you are "an eternal, immortal, creator being of infinite power" and if so, how that life might look. Please share with me these and any other thoughts that are appropriate by clicking on "comments" below.
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