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Lois Lane

Lois Lane Saves the World!

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Why I Love Mercury Retrograde And Why You Could Too!

by Ines SuljMercury has just gone retrograde again. This time in Gemini, the sign it rules.All the planets, except Sun and Moon, go in apparent backward motion from time to time, yet the Mercury retrograde seems to be the most famous one. Almost everyone knows about it, including the people who know nothing about astrology and those who don’t even believe in it.In astrology, when a planet is in retrograde, it doesn’t actually move backwards in the sky. It only a [...]

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Nuclear Experimentation Year 70 – Playing With Madness

Ethan Indigo Smith, ContributorThe recent “news” on the nuclear situation in Iran brings to light the madhouse of cards on which the postmodern world is built. Or rather, it would bring the madness to light if the major media outlets of the world were not bought up and sold out to the military industrial complex, and therefore completely misinformed on the actions and dangers of the nuclear experimentation industry.The story is not just about [...]

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The Mystery of the Ghost Ship Lunatic

The Lunatic Piran found abandoned Jure Stwerk at the Helm           ...

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10 Qualities Every Human Being Should Have

Luminita Saviuc, Purpose Fairy“I decided, very early on, just to accept life unconditionally; I never expected it to do anything special for me, yet I seemed to accomplish far more than I had ever hoped. Most of the time it just happened to me without my ever seeking it.” ~ Audrey HepburnIf you ask me, there are certain qualities each and every human being should have. Qualities that have the power to help each and every one of us to connect with our own selves and the wor [...]

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Do We Plan Our Lives Before We Are Born?

Nikkie Gray, Collective-EvolutionThe theory that we plan our lives was something I had never heard of before 2011. Up until that point, I could not have even imagined such a thing. Even after hearing about it 3 years ago, it took me quite a long time to let this concept into my paradigm. How I stumbled upon it wasn’t even through my avid research of the afterlife and reincarnation. It came to me through a vision I had. Before the vision, I believed in reincarnation. The idea of it ha [...]

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CONTAINERS OF DIVINITY

this message came as a direct result of my having asked Jeshua

"what can i do to extend my love into this appearance "  (the oil spill)

what you will read below is jeshuas response as to who we are and

how t...

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Your Multidimensional Operating System

Channeler: Suzan Caroll Ph.D

APRIL 2010


See Blog for latest radio shows http://suzanneliephd.blogspot.com/
including Higher Perspective with Ronald Cole




STEP 21
YOUR MULTIDIMENSIONAL OPERATING SYSTEM

Welcome back to our Arcturian Corridor. We wish to take a moment to review our process in Step 20. * Then, we will assist you in the use of the new, Multidimensional Operating System that you downloaded in that Step.

In order for the light of your Multidimensional SELF to observe it’s great light in a physical form, it had to split that light into “the observer” and “that which was to be observed.” Your conscious, intelligent, unconditional loving SELF, who resonates to the ONE, then needed to create a Divine Ideal for the form it wished to observe in its holographic projection of life in the lower dimensions. Consequently, your SELF created a thought-form of a human body, which became the object off which the first beam of light would reflect. **

The second beam of light was then infused with unconditional love and multidimensional consciousness so that once it reflected off the mirror and intermingled with the first beam (human form) on the holographic plate, the purity of the original light (Multidimensional SELF) would be maintained.

The light was projected onto the holographic plate of planet Earth. At this point, your SELF needed to observe you so that the swirling circles of energy of your conscious light could become form. In this manner, your form was held and the illusion of your physical reality was maintained.

This process is repeated again and again for every third, fourth dimensional reality in which your Soul/SELF chooses the experience of being in third dimensional form. When you gain Mastery within the form of even one of these realities, you can consciously return to your fifth dimensional Lightbody and travel inter-dimensionally with the power of your multidimensional consciousness and unconditional love.


BEING A MASTER

Your Multidimensional Operating System, which was downloaded in Step 20, has the primary goal of guiding you into Mastery of your present reality. As a Master of Energy you can fully embrace your Multidimensional SELF who will return you to your true, multidimensional reality.

The youtube below will add insight to this statement: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g79UaJ8s8K4


Brief Summary of Youtube:
Your many multidimensional realities are extensive fractals and subjective fundamental patterns expressing your holographic rays. Since you already exist in many dimensions, your being is timeless.  Every element of focus you have ever had, still exists.

The illusion of time does not dissipate energy; it only focuses it. All that you have experienced in all of your sojourns into form still exists in the NOW of the ONE. Once you can perceive reality from this perspective, your ideal of time changes from something that was past, present or future into the arena of experience. As a Multidimensional Being, you move into the consciousness of the perceiver that moves from one experience to another, rather than from one time to another.

A Master can move through experiences without being bound by the “River of Time,” for a Master lives within all the moments in-between. As you regain this innate Mastery of your Multidimensional SELF, there is nothing that you cannot experience again and again, for you are operating within the no-time of the Multidimensional Universe.


INTEGRATIVE CONSCIOUSNESS

Your Multidimensional Operating System also allows you access to a new form of consciousness, which is as delicate as an Angel’s wings and as strong as a mountain. This state of consciousness intermingles who you are on your transmuting planet with the true SELF to whom you are returning. Your multidimensional consciousness releases any emotional “hooks” to the third dimension that may interfere with your process of allowing all that is leaving to be replaced by all that is becoming. This new state of consciousness stems from your Junk DNA, which is constantly being activated by your Multidimensional Operating System. Your new consciousness assists you in expanding into the fifth dimension while remaining grounded on Earth.

For the sake of conversation, we will call this consciousness “Integrative Consciousness,” for it allows you to integrate into your awareness all that you want to remain in your life while you enter the marvelous adventures of New Earth. In other words, your Integrative Consciousness allows you to easily release that which is now complete, so that you can fully embrace that which was formerly beyond your perceptions. This release assists you in integrating the “past” and the “future” into a cohesive reality of NOW.

Your Integrative Consciousness also helps you to remember any pertinent information/experiences from your myriad past lives and parallel realities, so that you can intermingle them into your new reality. In this manner, nothing necessary for your return to SELF will be forgotten or lost. In fact, Integrative Consciousness allows you to exerience no sense of loss at all during your shift into your true, Multidimensional SELF, as it assures you that you retain all your primary lessons, experiences, loves and creations as you become New Earth.

Just as the information now stored in a device you can hold in your hand once had to be stored in computers so large that they filled entire rooms, your Integrative Consciousness can gather and store all the pertinent data/experiences from all the realities that you have ever manifested in ALL your third and fourth dimensional realities.

You do not constantly peruse the information that is stored in your hand-held computer devise, but you know it is available should you need it. In the same manner, you will not constantly be in conscious contact with all the information in your Integrative Consciousness, but you can access it whenever it is needed. The energy of Pluto in Capricorn, which will be in transit until 2024, will facilitate your ability to release that which is over while you keep that which allows your rebirth.

Your Integrative Consciousness also assists you in integrating your Personal, Collective, Planetary, Galactic and Cosmic Consciousness into the ONE awareness of the many versions of your SELF. In other words:

Your Integrative Consciousness perceives you as an individual
Within the collective of all humanity

Within the collective of planet Earth

Within the collective of your Solar System

Within the collective of your Galaxy
Within the collective of the Universe.

All of these collective realities exist within the Great Collective of Cosmic Consciousness:

Hence, your Individual Consciousness 
is surrounded by your Collective Consciousness, 
Which is surrounded by your Planetary Consciousness, 
Which is surrounded by your Solar Consciousness, 
Which is surrounded by your Galactic consciousness, 
Which is surrounded by your Cosmic Consciousness.

Most importantly, your Integrative Consciousness merges your spark of individual love with the unconditional of love of the ONE. This merging of humans’, conditional love into spiritual, unconditional love allows you to hold all of your myriad realities within your awareness through the great magnetic force of unconditional love. Unconditional love is the glue that binds all reality into a cohesive ONE. In fact, it is unconditional love that holds the myriad expressions of SELF within your Integrative Consciousness.

SEEING WITHIN

Allow your imagination to turn your vision inward to the inside of your earth vessel. Think of your earth vessel as you would think of any vessel, an object that YOU enter so that you, consciousness/light, can move around in an environment. For example, your home/vessel stores your body/vessel, which stores your consciousness/light. You are NOT your house or your earth vessel, for these objects are used to store the YOU that is consciousness and light.

Take a moment to look inside the vessel of your body to see YOU, consciousness/light, just as you would look inside your house. You know the house that provides protection for your earth vessel very intimately. However, how much do you know about your earth vessel that provides a third dimensional form for your consciousness/light? To better know the inside of your body:

Imagine that your are standing at the doorway to your heart...
Closely examine the inner vision of your heart...
Closely examine the doorway into your heart...
Just as you would enter the door to your house, enter the door to your heart...
As you enter this door, see a long stairway that leads up to your High Heart...

As you walk up these stairs, the glow of your Three Fold Flame guides you...
See your ATMA, your Three Fold Flame, and step into it...
FEEL and Merge with your innate Wisdom, Power and Love...
As you do so, you are instantly transported into your Third Eye...

Within your Third Eye, you turn inward to see the electrical circuitry of your brain’s synapses firing with your every perception and thought...
Look up towards your Crown to see the Opened Pineal Stargate pulling in multidimensional light and unconditional love...

Move to the center of your Computer Brain where the Kundalini Earth energy that has risen into your Third Eye intersects with the Flow of the ONE through your Pineal Stargate...
YOU are now the programmer of your computer/brain...
With the great force of your consciousness/light, turn ALL systems of your Multidimensional Operating System ON...


THE BIRTH CANAL

Turning on your Multidimensional Operating System places you in the birth canal of your new life. Because you are in the birthing process of your new life, you may be experiencing great fatigue. You may feel so close and yet so far. Your new synapses tell you that you are different, but your remaining illusions tell you that life appears to be the same, so just go back to “business as usual.”  This conflict between the two messages builds doubt, which increases your fatigue. 

You are so tired, so very, very tired. But what are you tired of? First, you are tired of the 3D Game. You have gone through it so many lifetimes and done, redone and done again the same dramas.  Second, you are tired of waiting for the shift to happen. You want it to happen NOW. It is then that your New Operating System kicks in to remind you that it is only your belief that limits you to the third dimension. Your Multidimensional Operation System reminds you that all you need to change is your consciousness.

When you raise your consciousness, you move up the vertical spectrum of possible realities toward the resonance of the fifth dimension. Each time a multidimensional circuit is turned ON and a third dimensional synapse turns OFF, your expanded perceptions are activated and you can perceive the higher dimensional expressions of your reality that have previously eluded you. When you can consciously perceive these higher frequencies of reality, you can place your attention and intention on them. Then, it will be much easier to release the limitations and hard work of your third dimensional life.

Now that you know the truth of your magnificent, multidimensional nature, you can no longer accept the restriction put upon you by an outdated system of beliefs that focuses on struggle and fear. You rebel against those limitations and are finding the courage to create the reality of your dreams. You still feel the onslaught of fear emanating from the Collective Consciousness of those who wish to control others.

However, you can also feel the unconditional love of your SELF, as well the widening stream of unconditional love that is also Flowing from the ONE. It is this Flow of unconditional love that assists you in raising your consciousness, beliefs, expectations and perceptions into the reality of fifth dimensional Earth. With this beacon of hope and love shinning in your aura, you are beginning to find time to be with those who are near to your heart and to do what you love.

As illusions crumble and false prophecies are uncovered, you see the slow collapse of old third dimensional systems. You are entering such a deep confidence in your SELF that you are coming out of the “hiding” that was necessary before you awoke. You no longer fear what others think of you, nor do you need their approval or praise. You are an “Island unto your SELF” in that all your needs are met from the vertical realties that fill you with unconditional love.

Meanwhile, the horizontal reality of the third dimension remains as a place in which you serve and assist others to awaken and become their SELF, just as you have. At night your dreams are filled with life in the fifth dimension, and you awaken with messages to assist you in your daily life. On the other hand, you may also use your dreamtime to clear out issues from childhood, past lives or alternate realities that beg to be cleared from your aura. In this case, you may awake tired, anxious or depressed.

It is then that you go into meditation, take a walk, or talk to a loved one to re-find your Center. YOU are the Center, not only of your physical body, but also the Center of your physical reality. You are creating this reality with your every thought and emotion. You are the Master of your destiny, as well as the destiny that you share with every human and non-human member of Gaia’s Earth. In fact, YOU are Earth, for you are Gaia, the Consciousness of your planet.

When you begin your day, you find your Center and follow its Flow into the highest expression of your Being. Because you trust your SELF, you calmly relax into the movement of your breath and step into that Flow of the ONE to receive the guidance that it gives you.

Feel that guidance now...

Absorb it into your every cell and atom of your being, into our aura and into your daily life.  Share this guidance through the emanation of your presence as you slowly go public with the gifts of your expanding reality. You remember again and again throughout your day to call upon the unconditional love of the ONE to release all fear and attract love, peace and joy.  Allow your fatigue to remind you of that which you are tired of doing and of whom you are tired of being.  Respect that message and follow the Flow of the love on which it travels to find the Path to the Life You Love to Live.

The long, third dimensional winter of separation and limitation is fading into a memory, and spring is beginning to bloom. That which is complete is leaving your life to make space for the re-birth of whom you truly ARE. Release that which no longer functions in your life and allow Pluto to pull it from the structure of Capricorn to prune the flowers that have completed their life cycle. In this manner, you make a space in which your new life can be born. YOU are Awakening now, and the long night is ending.  Before you a glorious adventure is dawning.

THE BIRTH

Gradually, the first two sprouts sneak above the damp fertile soil. Lovingly, the light of the sun caresses them, urging them to open wide to their new reality. Too long, the young plant has hidden beneath the earth, afraid to face an unknown world of light. The darkness of its earthen reality was familiar and comfortable.

Yet the two small arms have peered up from the safety of the only world they have known to venture into the light. “What will become of them?” whisper the roots who cling to the familiar. “We may never know,” they all agree. “Nonetheless, together, we will hold firm to create a base for the part of us that has ventured into an unknown land.”

To their surprise, the roots did know because they felt the flow of light sent down to them by their brave pioneer. Gradually, this added light fed the roots to make them bigger, deeper, and stronger. Mystically, they could feel the movement of their leaves as they grew taller and more plentiful each day.

Together, they rejoiced at the birth of their first flower. How did they know of this birth? The leaves told them. Yes, the land above was no longer unknown to the roots, for they constantly communed with the rest of their SELF.

Slowly, the roots expanded into new underground territory to intermingle with other roots. They also formed a center root that dug deep into the core of Mother Earth. Just as the auxiliary roots intertwined with other roots to create a network just below the surface, the center roots communed with each other via the fertile soil that connected them.

One day, the roots discovered that they were no longer just a plant. “We have Become ONE. We are now a garden,” their plants joyfully communed to them. As the roots communed with the other roots in their network, they further learned that each system of roots supported a different plant, which bloomed different flowers at different times. But blissfully enough, each root, each leaf, each plant, and each flower was ONE within the garden that they had become.

The roots were proud of their plants, but so wished that they could see the garden of which they were a part. “Go inside your self,” whispered the Sun. “Travel up your own roots into your stem, out past the leaves, and up into your flower.”

“Our flower?” they said. “We are not flowers. We are just roots.”

“Ahh,” cooed the Sun. “I come down into you, the roots, so that the flowers can bloom. So please, come up to me so that I may thank you for your service.”

“Our service?” the roots asked in one voice.

“Yes, dear roots, you are the parents of your plant. You first conceived it while you where just a seed. You gestated the seed through the long, cold winter, and in spring, you were the ones who formed a support system when your flower was just a seedling.

“You pulled the water and minerals from the soil to nurture your plant, and you empowered it with your strong foundation. You are the reason there is a garden, for you were able to release a part of you, your seedling, so that it could go off into an unknown land. You neither judged nor reprimanded it. In fact, you supported what you did not understand.

“You see dear roots, you are the inner life that allows your flower to bloom in the glory of my Sun. Without you, there would be no plant, no flower and no garden. Because you were courageous enough to experience what you did not understand, you will receive the vision of my light!”

LIVING MULTIPLE REALITIES


More and more, with or without your conscious knowing, you are lapsing into your alternate, multidimensional realities. Because you are new to your Multidimensional Operating System, you think that you have “forgotten” some THING, or “spaced out.” In fact, you are in the act of remembering some ONE, your SELF.This expanding remembrance of your SELF makes it increasingly difficult for you to be limited to the reality of your earth vessel.

You are like a child with a new toy. You want to play with this toy and forget about the work your mother has told you to do. Fortunately, once you adapt and become proficient with your Multidimensional Operating System, you will be able to easily perform your 3D tasks, while you simultaneously soar through your new realities. Then, you will be watching your physical self from your Multidimensional SELF. From this higher perspective, you will understand that you are not leaving your third dimensional reality yet. Instead, you are expanding your reality to embrace the higher dimensions while still holding your physical form.

Eventually, your consciousness will resonate to such a high frequency, that you will “let go” of your clay vessel to fully embrace your true form of light. At that point, you will concentrate more on your new, multidimensional reality and less on the limitations of your old, physical reality. This transition can be as simple as gradually falling asleep and slowly waking. However, when you wake up in your new life, it will be your true reality and the illusions of your physical life will be experienced as a long dream.

You will not awake alone, for Gaia, as well as all Her inhabitants who have supported the creation of Her new form, shall be with you. You will also rejoin your Galactic Family, for your entire Galaxy is now ready to return to its higher expression. Remember, our One, that from the perspective of your awakening, fifth dimensional SELF, you are able to maintain constant contact and interaction with all your realities without being limited to only one. You are now endeavoring to connect with your fifth dimensional SELF, but your fifth dimensional SELF has always been in connection with you.

When you take on a third dimensional form, the speck of your Being that chooses to enter that form still exists in unity with your Multidimensional SELF. Then, once the YOU in the third dimension awakens, you can experience both your third and fifth dimensional realities simultaneously. Then again, the perception of multidimensional worlds while still in your earth vessel requires that you download and integrate the multidimensional consciousness of your Multidimensional Operating System before you can experience multiple realities.

A way in which you already live in multiple realities is when you are reading a good book.  When you are reading a book that you deeply enjoy, it travels with you in your mind like another reality. You may be at work or doing dishes and momentarily shift your primary attention to the story of the book. At the same time, you are still performing your physical task.

Instead of reliving a part of your book, you may be replaying a video game in your mind. In reality, your third dimensional experience is the “video game” that your Multidimensional SELF logged-into. Unfortunately, when you forgot that you were “in a game” you began to think that the video game was real and the vague memory of your SELF was just your imagination. Of course, your imagination IS real, for imagination is fifth dimensional thought.

Much like you can log-out of a video game, while the game still continues without your primary attention, you can log-out of the 3D Game and log-in to the fifth dimension, while the 3D Game continues to run. In fact, that is what you do when you “space out,” sleep, meditate or fall into your imagination. You already live in multiple realities. You just label it as “using your imagination” rather than “following your fifth dimensional thought patterns into alternate realities.”

Just as all the television channels are always running all the time, but you can only watch one channel, all your realities are running all the time, but you can only watch one. Actually, you can “surf” from one channel to another. Or, maybe, you have multiple televisions or a wide screen television where more than one channel can play at once. The large, screen television that can display multiple channels functions like your new Multidimensional Operating System. Within this Operating System, you can watch and participate in numerous stations/realities at the same time.

BEING MULTIDIMENSIONAL

Just as your physical self can talk to a friend, drive a car, listen to the radio and drink water at the same time with no difficulty, your fifth dimensional SELF can consciously participate in multiple realities within the ONE moment of the NOW. It is the ability to break free of the illusion of time and space that allows you to participate in multiple realities. Just as you can drive, eat, talk and listen within a single third dimensional moment, you can exist in multiple realities within the fifth dimensional NOW. To have an experience of what we are saying, we are you to:

Create an image of yourself reading this message in your present reality then...
ADD the image of walking in a fifth dimensional forest in another reality...
Now ADD the image of navigating your Starship in another reality...

Allow your imagination to hold three images at once:
Reading this message...
Walking in a fifth dimensional forest...
Navigating your Starship...

To the extent that you are still using your Third Dimensional Operating system, these three pictures are in different areas of your mind. That is fine for this part of the exercise.

Now, “press play” to allow these pictures to come alive with movement, experiences, thoughts and emotions...

Perhaps you are experiencing some anxiety, doubt or excitement as you simultaneously hold three different “videos” in your mind. You are likely using your mind as one of those televisions that presents three stations on the same screen. Therefore, first, view them one at a time.

Tune into the experience, emotions and thoughts of reading this message...

Tune into the experience, emotions, thoughts and perceptions of walking in a fifth dimensional forest...

Tune into the experience, emotions, thoughts and perceptions of navigating your Starship...
  
We ask you now to activate your Multidimensional Operating System, just as you did in the previous exercise...

Feel how all of these “pictures” are moving independently of each other, yet all of them live as ONE in your consciousness...

Now take your primary consciousness out of “reading this article” and place it into “Walking in the fifth dimensional forest”...

Imagine that you are walking in a 5D forest—while you are navigating your Starship in another reality—while reading this message in yet another reality...

Now, put your primary consciousness into “navigating your Starship”—while you also walk in the fifth dimensional forest—while you are reading this message in the third dimension...

At first, this exercise may “hurt your brain,” until you become accustomed to perceiving more than one reality at a time. Fortunately, within your Multidimensional Operating System, your expanded perceptions are gradually coming online. Your expanded perceptions greatly facilitate your ability to intimately experience the inter-dimensional realities that are wafting through your ever-expanding reality.

In fact, YOU are the creator of your many multidimensional realities. Unfortunately, many of you have forgotten that fact. Therefore, the first adjustment you will make with the power of your Multidimensional Operating System is to turn OFF the DNA that limits you to third dimensional perceptions and turn ON the DNA that activates your multidimensional perceptions.


From your “Programmer Position” in the center of your computer/brain, make sure that the multidimensional Junk DNA that stores your expanded perceptions is turned ON and the limitations of your 3% third dimensional DNA is turned OFF. You may wish to start this exercise with the inner vision of your heart, just as you did before. In this manner, you can assure that you enter the place in your consciousness, as well as in your computer/brain, where YOU are the Programmer of your reality.

You can choose to believe this experience is “an interesting exercise,” or you can choose to believe that you have the ability to control your own DNA. All of you on Gaia at this “time” have graduated into a higher level of the 3D Game of Separation and Limitation. However, you know that only if you can remember that you are a holographic projection of your Multidimensional SELF. It was YOU who chose to send a spark of your total light to be unified on the holographic plate of planet Earth for the experience of assisting in Gaia’s planetary ascension.

BECOMING A CHANNEL

Click here to listen to the message Blessings on Your Awakening
http://www.multidimensions.com/players/BlessingsAwakening.mp3
(Long version with special information for being a channel.)

Because you have downloaded and turned ON your Multidimensional Operating System, you can begin to remember and maintain the state of consciousness in which  “you are the programmer” of your 3D experience.  See your earth vessel from the viewpoint of your Multidimensional SELF, so that you can view the two main programming Centers of your earth vessel, your High Heart and Opened Third Eye.

Your Opened Third Eye uses the multidimensional light to program and run your computer/brain; whereas your High Heart uses the great force of unconditional love to run, maintain and heal your earth vessel. These control centers function as ONE unit to receive the multidimensional light and unconditional love that guides you back to your true, Multidimensional SELF.

Connect with your High Heart to receive the unconditional love from your Multidimensional SELF...
Allow this love to protect you and give you courage to open the Stargate Portal of your pineal gland...

Open your inter-dimensional Portal of your Crown to receive a multidimensional light message from HOME...
Display this message on the inner mind screen of your Third Eye...

Integrate the words/pictures of your message with your unconditional love and integrative consciousness, so that you can receive and understand the highest frequency components of the messages that you receive. In this manner, you can learn to BE your Multidimensional Lightbody SELF in your daily life.

Even if your message is as simple as “Have a Nice Day,” allow your unconditional love to fully embrace the many ways in which you could have a nice day. From this simple message, you can begin to open a channel of ongoing communication between your grounded, human/self and your celestial, Multidimensional/SELF.

BLESSINGS ON YOUR AWAKENING - YOUTUBE VIDEO- http://www.youtube.com/user/suzannelie#p/u/4/frfUOZQ0ADU
 
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http://www.multidimensions.com/TheVision/newsletter_042810.html

* Step 20
 
** Diagram on Carroll/Lie’s site.

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The Meaning of Deja Vu

"Déjà Vu" is a common intuitive experience that has happened to many of us. The expression is derived from the French, meaning "already seen." When it occurs, it seems to spark our memory of a place we have already been, a person we have already seen, or an act we have already done. It is a signal to pay special attention to what is taking place, perhaps to receive a specific lesson in a certain area or complete what is not yet finished.


In “Second Sight” I describe many theories to explain déjà vu: a memory of a dream, a precognition, a coincidental overlapping of events or even a past life experience in which we rekindle ancient alliances. What matters is that it draws us closer to the mystical. It is an offering, an opportunity for additional knowledge about ourselves and others.

During a trip to Africa, Carl Jung described a feeling of déjà vu when he viewed a slim, black man leaning on a spear looking down at his train as it made a turn around a steep cliff on the way to Nairobi. He writes, "I had the feeling that I had already experienced this moment and had always known this world." Although this world and this man were something alien to him, he saw the whole thing as perfectly natural. He called this a recognition of what was "immemorially known."

In Western culture, we are brought up to consider anyone who isn't an immediate member of our circle of friends and family to be a stranger. Yet at times, you meet people whom you feel as if you have known for years. You can talk to them about anything and they understand. You laugh easily with them. The tone of their voice, the way they take their coffee, all seem commonplace. It isn't that they remind you of someone else or that their qualities are simply endearing. You relate to them not as strangers, but as people with whom you have shared history, members of the same tribe.

A patient of mine named Shannon knew that she was going to marry her husband the day that they met. She had dated a lot of men following her divorce, but none of them felt right. Then, she met Bob. There was something about the way he smiled, the glint of his hair, his voice and the shape of his hands, that made her think that they had known each other before. After talking it was clear that their paths had never crossed, but after their first lunch date, they became inseparable. What Shannon and Bob immediately felt for each other was more than just physical chemistry. It was a natural compatibility and a depth of intimacy that usually emerges after couples are together for many years. They were married two months after they met and have been together now for ten years.

I’m often asked how to tell the difference between a feeling of déjà-vu when we first meet someone and an attraction stemming from an addictive obsession. Some addiction specialists say that whenever you meet someone and an explosion of fireworks go off, this is a sign not of true love, but of one neurosis meeting another. They suggest that you run as fast as you can in the opposite direction.

Based upon my work with the recovering community, I agree that there is a strong tendency among addicts and some non-addicts to try to "fix" themselves with love and sex, rushing prematurely into relationships inspired only by intense physical attraction. They often have nothing to do with déjà-vu, but stem rather from a basic emptiness that longs to be filled. There is no true bond between the people involved, they hardly know each other, and these partnership attempts fail miserably when the pink glow of newness wears off.

The fact that an encounter feels compelling or immediate doesn't necessarily mean that it is healthy or unhealthy. The experience of déjà vu must always be approached discerningly. However, mostly déjà-vu experiences are not obsessive or compulsive. They rather convey a quality that is quiet and solid..

The possibility of having a déjà vu is inherent in partnerships of all kinds, particularly the more intimate ones. It can occur in business, friendships and family, often leading to pivotal outcomes that can impact the direction of our life.

There are situations that are glitches in time, when the rules bend and the mystery takes hold. Enchanted moments that sparkle. These are deja-vus. They can take place anywhere, at any time and with anyone. Your real estate agent might show you a house that feels so familiar and right, you instantly know it is yours. Or perhaps you are in a restaurant and sense an inexplicable kinship with a woman sitting in the back corner booth. Don't let these possibilities pass you by. Take notice; investigate. There is no way of predicting where each might lead or what it will teach you. Summoning the courage to take a chance and act on synchronicities, to have faith in what is not yet visible, will make the experience your own.

Adapted from Second Sight: An Intuitive Psychiatrist Tells Her Story and Show You How to Tap Your Own Inner Wisdom (Three Rivers Press, 2010) by Judith Orloff MD

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KNOWING “ALL IS WELL”

I AM ANGEL GABRIEL...
 
I AM THAT I AM...
 
greetings and salutations from home my beloved and cherished friends...
 
I AM ANGEL GABRIEL.....
 
i come forth thru this one on this day in what you would call your time
of 2010...
i want to bring you a "feeling".....a feeling of deep love...
a "knowing" of deep love that births forth like a spring flower
whose presence touches many if they would "choose" to take a moment
and en-join with the energetic field of such a flower.....
do notice my beloved heart that i used the word "choose" for you
see ~everything~ is a choice....you are free in any moment to choose to enjoin with the perfection and
beauty of the spring bud or you are just as free to walk by it and have
your thoughts be elsewhere.....thinking about your job....your problems...
your wants and needs.....
so...where am i taking you with all of this that i am speaking of...?.
 
dear beloved friends....i am taking you on the only real journey there truly
is....the journey of the now moment...
for you see....there is only now..............and there is only now eternally...
yes...once you drop the body you are still in the eternal now...
you simply change the vehicle you would experience it through...
 
you are the one who chooses what you will experience in each now moment
and all that you could choose to see is available for you in each ...
 
in each now you can choose to see the beauty and the perfection
thus "calling it to yourself" or you can choose to see what is wrong...
what is im-perfect in your eyes...what does not seem to "be" going
right for you....yes....dear one..........it is all in "the palms of your hands"...
 
you will experience immediately whatever you choose to...
 
so...that being said...let me speak to you now of why it is so very important
to choose to see with the eyes of love...
what some have called the "eyes of Christ"
 
when one chooses to notice the beauty of the spring flower even as they
may be in the midst of momentary sadness...even when they may be
a little "down in the dumps" ....in that very now moment you have
chosen for the only thing that is truly real...............you have chosen love...
 
yes....yes...yes....simply by acknowledging the essence and beauty of that
seemingly "one" flower of life..you have made a choice....
you and you alone have chosen to "experience" the "feeling"
of beauty...................love....all that is dear beloved's...
 
that choice immediately changes your vibration and keeps you in what I
like to call the "flow of life"......(the flower of love)
to be in that flow as often as possible will bring to you many miraculous
moments...
 
 for you see it is the vibration you carry that attracts to you all that
you could "possibly see"...
 
what you "perceive" no matter how it may "appear" is
what  ~ you will experience~...!!!!
 
let it begin by knowing "all is well"....
not trusting all is well....for trusting still has a ring of doubt to it
does it not??
to trust means that a moment in gods kingdom "is not perfect"...
it is a wonderful grand step to start with but it will not take you
where in truth i know you would like to be...
 
so....today....begin with practicing "knowing" all is in divine order...
skip the step from trust to knowing...
simply know that "all is god" no matter what is happening in any now moment....
take within you the deep breath of peace and claim it to be so
from the core of your being....
yes...you are the master...therefore you and you alone "claim what you will
experience"......  this dear hearts is the law of the land...
 
i am of the angelic realm and from here we simply extend fluid love...
we breathe it in and we extend it out...........
we fill all of creation with color....spectacle....tone........fluid "lovitity"
 
now.................this one whom i share thru has reached this level of
purity within herself and she knew she would take this journey
before birth.......................she is one with me now..........having birthed the divine
feminine of Angel Gabriel and bringing it here to earth.............
i speak of this thru her not for her own personal glory...
i speak of it so she "will own it" as so...!!!
 
miracles ....miracles of wonder are happening on your beloved terra now
and it is up to you to "seek them out"...
 
in other words............turn your tellys to those shows that enlighten you...
lift you....there are many wonderful beings of light doing much
to lift this world into a higher vibration and you can be of service
simply by your "acknowledgement" that love is here now..............
doing exactly what love does.........................
love extends itself eternally.................................this is so.
 
so...i leave you this day with one exercise that you can put into practice
whenever a thought arises within you that something in your world
is not of a divine nature...
 
when you experience such a moment...practice this....
 
feel the difference in the "feeling within you" when you think you
must "trust" it........
 
then feel the POWER of KNOWING ALL IS WELL...
 
there will be much there for you....
 
practice this throughout your coming days and weeks as there will be
much in your world that you could judge...have an "opinion" on...
beloveds........from our vantage point there is no such thing as an opinion...
there is no such thing as a judgment...
 
there is only the awareness of the perfection of all that love is...
 
this is what i wish for you to discover.....play with it...
keep it light.....for you see it is seriousness that keeps realities
of your own creation in place...
 
with that....i say to you...............you are deeply .....deeply honored
and loved for walking in the shoes of light and love on your beloved
earth at this moment "in time"...
yet....when you practice this that i have set out before you
in truth "you are not in time" at all...
you are in heaven...............................
 
i love you.....
 
I AM ANGEL GABRIEL................
 
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Alice Time: Choosing Six Impossible Things To Believe In

I am an “Alice-o-phile”. I adore Alice in Wonderland and have forever and ever. My basement stairwell is painted as a Rabbit Hole and I have a collection of Alice art and copies of Alice because early on, I understood the message of Alice in Wonderland and Alice Through the Looking Glass at an archetypal level.


Alice is our escort into the many absurd notions, ideas, politics and policies, beliefs and attitudes that underlie society and the way we see “reality”. And oh how long and absurd this list is of beliefs we are so convinced are true, important, real, and urgent. Why just the other day, I overheard a woman at the gym say to her friend, “I’ve got to hurry. If I don’t get this report in to my colleagues, the business deal we’ve been working on will be toast.”

“That’s absurd,” I thought. “If that report were so important – if you were so important to the business deal - what on earth are you doing at the gym?” Silly, silly girl – and now, I thought, she is going to rush away from the gym in a state of “It’s all about ME-ness”. An “Alice moment”, if there ever was one – and there are plenty in my world because I see so much “through the Looking Glass”. (Seeing through the Looking Glass requires that you reverse what you’re looking at, viewing everything through its opposite. If something appears complicated, see it as simple. People always look for “something”. Note this classic line from A through the LG: “I wish I could see nothing as well as you can.” Brilliant…)

We live in a world that is completely in love with going in the wrong direction. For example, we live in a society that completely trusts the rational mind to structure and order “reality”. (For starters, just look at what the rational mind has produced: wars, weapons, bio-destructive forces, environmental disasters, politics of deceit, religious corruption, false gods and bogus religious myths, bizarre notions of what’s real and what isn’t – like the doctrine of creationism in this, the 21st century, though civilization is much older than 21 centuries.) The absurdity of what we believe to be true and yet, how we behave as a “civilized” people is incomprehensible – much less how we go about negotiating our definition of being civilized. But enough of that…you get the picture.

Let’s jump back into Lewis Carroll and his magic. He delighted in satirizing the love affair that members of Victorian society had with themselves and, in particular, their addiction to snobbery. He looked at what the upper class could not bear to examine about themselves, which was, in essence, their own lavish lifestyles, attitudes, and well maintained prejudices about the way the world was and simply had to remain in order to keep them happy. But it is precisely this addiction to one’s personal enclosed comfort zone that positions a person to become exactly what he or she believes an elite lifestyle and privilege protects a person from becoming: close-minded, irrational, unyielding, unrealistic, and completely out of touch with the world at large. To say this another way: The more a person has to lose in life, the less likely that person is to welcome change or to embrace the vast world of the imagination.

Social and political revolutions have always been initiated at the grass roots level because those at the “top” have the most to lose. They see no reason for society to change, because from where they are sitting (Wall Street), everything looks just fine. Those who can envision energy technology, for instance, and have urged the auto and other industries for decades now to invest in energy technologies, have done so for several reasons, among them these two: First, they can see the handwriting on the decline of the oil-based economic wall. That is, we have to move in the direction of alternative fuels. But secondly, these visionaries simply can imagine the impossible. These are the people who are not afraid to take a risk and go where others have not yet gone in thought, in action, and yes, in investment in financial resources.

Carl Jung adored the realm of the imagination. He may well be the master explorer of our age of this domain. For him, the imagination contained the passageways to the psyche and the inner voices of our archetypes. Active imagination was an essential tool that he introduced, establishing a form of communication between the conscious and unconscious self. Right there we have something to imagine as impossible: opening a portal of communication between your conscious and unconscious self. That may be getting ahead of yourself a bit, but such a mega-thought does qualify for imagining the impossible, if you have never, in fact, considered undertaking such an endeavor.

Imagining the impossible – what a delicious and positively enchanting notion. And yet, the realm of the imagination is a fully and completely threatening place to suggest to a person who fears the loss of the familiar. As children, the world of the imagination is an acceptable playground because children are not yet rational creatures and a child’s imagination is considered cute – to an extent. Children are supposed to have imaginations – for a while. Technically speaking, if one can say such a thing, the psychic boundaries of children are still porous; therefore, they are subject to the “hallucinations” of the imagination. These include, for example, imaginary playmates and perhaps seeing the occasional fairy or sprite. Dark spirits may even show up. But a child is likely to be told that these nonphysical visitors are not “real”, they are merely “imaginary”. Thus, early on the lines in the sand are clearly drawn: What comes from the mind is “real”; what comes from the imagination is, well, imaginary. Not real. A poof of a thing, no more than a whimsical passing thought form.

Now granted the mind has “poofs” all the time, ideas that run through it this way and that, but because such thoughts come from the mind, these are not the same type of “imaginary” thoughts because…well…because they can perhaps wear the label of “practical” or “provable” or “conventional”. A value is made apparent very quickly to baby humans: If you are going to delve into the impossible, just make sure it’s the “practical impossible” and that your ideas can solve problems or increase production or profits somewhere. Having ideas just for the fun of having ideas is well, impractical! A waste of imaginary income – not that a person imagines or visualizes income….well, perhaps people do. But do such thoughts really qualify for “imagining” or just wishing? That question leads us to this most important question: Do people really know how to fall down the Rabbit Hole? It’s an art, after all, and not an accident.

The Art of Falling Down The Rabbit Hole

I’m an expert on falling down the Rabbit Hole. I live in the world of the imagination and the impossible. I rely upon the imagination to fill me with ideas on a continual basis. If I lived in the ordinary world, I would disintegrate in short order because the ordinary world is a place filled with reasons why ideas can’t succeed and with the wounds of failure and painful memories of the past that keep reminding people that they should live fearful lives instead of inspiring ones. In fact, even while writing this, a friend called for a business-related matter but in warming up to our meeting, he asked what I was doing. I told him I was writing a piece based on Alice in Wonderland. He asked if I liked the movie. I said, “Not really, and I suspect Lewis Carroll would not have cared for it either. Alice was meant to be enchanted in Wonderland and not be disappointed by characters who were defeated by an angry Red Queen.” He asked me why I loved Alice so much and I carried on and on about my many reasons and even brought the wisdom of Alice into the nonsense of the politics of Washington – which was not all that difficult. But after all that, he said, “I have an idea,” and off we went into the realm of the imagination, into the world of what is waiting to be created, ideas just waiting for a chance to incarnate.

Falling down the Rabbit Hole requires the capacity to “let go” and allow your imagination to take flight, giving form and vision to possibilities and impossibilities – before you let your mind tell you they are absurd, ridiculous, too expensive, and then that final blow, “What will people say?” What do you care what people say? I never have – and that is the great secret of the Rabbit Hole. You simply have to get over your fear of what other people think. For what possible reasons do you care what other people think?

Now to be clear – I am speaking of creative ideas, not of running out on my responsibilities, incurring huge debts, shooting up drugs, or deciding on a life of theft. So let’s be realistic about what I am speaking about when I speak about not caring about what other people think. I still have my head on straight and my feet firmly planted on the ground – but not my imagination. That part of me is given full reign to go off to places known and unknown to me. My target is the realm of ideas, original thought, creativity, and accessing the deep resources of your soul from which springs your “charism” or your “unique creative grace.” Visionaries and creative geniuses know this inner sanctuary, as do great poets, writers, and pioneers of science and medicine. This is where Emily Dickenson dwelled as well as Shakespeare, Mozart, Bach, Einstein, Thomas Jefferson and Benjamin Franklin. They all fell down their unique Rabbit Holes. They imagined worlds that did not yet exist and their lives became devoted to incarnating those worlds. I have no doubt that they imagined far more than six impossible things before breakfast every morning.

It’s easy to tell who has what it takes to sojourn down their Rabbit Holes. Within seconds of conversing with people, they say something that reveals whether they are courageous or frightened, or whether they essentially travel backwards all the time. They soon reveal whether they have the stamina of spirit to explore the unknown in their life or whether most of their decisions are aimed at keeping everything the same as it always has been. Backward travelers will never be able to find their Rabbit Holes. They have to be content with reading Lewis Carroll and simply wishing their life could be different. They will find it difficult to penetrate into the realm of the imagination, as there is a profound difference between wishing and imagining.

Wishing Versus The Power of The Imagination

Wishing has little, if any, real power. It’s musing at best and a passing thought or fancy in its weakest form. A wish is a temporary enchantment that lacks the backbone and substance to attract creative life force or power.

Imagination, on the other hand, takes effort, energy, and generates a substantial amount of emotional and psychic response once you make contact with a great idea. Merging with a unique vision is the same as having an unfamiliar download of grace rush through your system. In an instant, it penetrates into your intellect, your emotions, your mind, your vocabulary; your archetypal dynamics adjust themselves to new symbolic content – shifting your understanding of the cosmos. You can feel the power of that idea – that vision – take hold of you as it runs through your blood like a new drug, making its way into your neurology. And then it’s locked into your psyche. It’s yours. The download is complete and you are on a high that is unexplainable to anyone who has never been swept away by the thrill of contact with the realm of original thought. This is a love affair unlike anything on earth because it isn’t of the earth. But it soon will be – that becomes your task as the vessel of the imagination.

Original thought implodes someone who won’t do what’s required to be a container and vessel of that which others cannot see or comprehend. You have to be someone who can handle being misunderstood or keeping your own creative company or handling a vision others cannot understand. You have to be strong enough to believe alone – and for a long time – in what others cannot imagine. Many people have been able to do that, but most people cannot stand alone in the demanding realm of the imagination. So they live in the lesser world of fantasies and musings.

What if you really could fall down the Rabbit Hole? Would you? Doesn’t it tempt you even a little – or perhaps more than a little? Wouldn’t you love to let yourself go and tumble into your own great unknown – the unknown that is your own unimagined life that you could imagine if you fell down the Rabbit Hole? You know you would.

You could tell yourself this is just a game, so let’s just say this is just a game. Okay – falling down the Rabbit Hole is just a game. (But what if it isn’t? I had to say that – I just had to.)

Falling down your Rabbit Hole requires that you dwell in the world of your imagination. But really dwell in it. Nurture it. And here’s the challenging part: You have to do what your creativity calls for, in order to bring forth the ideas you are imagining. They won’t just fall from the sky. Books, for example, don’t write themselves. Great discoveries in medicine just don’t happen. Poets actually sweat over their poems even though they’ve been completely saturated with the grace of imagination. You must understand that you form a working partnership with your imagination. Consider that one never forms a working partnership with a wish – how absurd is that? Fairy tales always lead a person to believe that a “wish” alone does all the work. Now really – a wish and a bunch of fairies – and people believe this more than they believe in mystical consciousness. And you talk about absurd????? Anyway – on to the impossible – which is utterly possible.

Believing in Six Impossible Things Per Day

This could be the most fun exercise I have ever given you, by the way. Do NOT answer these questions rapidly. Answering rapidly is an indication that you do not want to give reflective thought to these questions which – let me point out – you have never been asked before. Therefore, you can’t possibly know the correct response right off the top of your head. These questions require reflection. And they are questions in search of responses versus “answers”.

1) Define what’s impossible versus what’s possible for you. You’ve said to yourself, “That’s impossible.” What were you talking about when you said that and why was “that” – whatever that was – impossible? Too risky? Too much money? Would you risk looking foolish?
2) What’s the key difference between what you see as possible versus impossible? In particular, you are to carry this description all the way to the point of including “consequences”. That is, what would be the consequences of the things in your life that you declared were impossible – because in identifying the consequences, you are naming what you are really afraid of experiencing?
3) Everyone travels backwards because everyone has a history. The object now is to determine this: How often each day do you travel backwards in time? All day? Most of the day? Occasionally?
4) Are most of your decisions aimed at keeping your life as it is or introducing change? What is your rationale for your decisions: Safety or new experiences and adventure?
5) Do you tend to dismiss the creative ideas of others, looking for why new ideas of suggestions won’t work as opposed to why they could work?
6) Is there some part of your life that you would like to move forward that would be assisted by believing in six impossible things?

Imagining Six Impossible Things

Start anywhere. Or you can build all six impossible ideas around a strategy, all supporting the desire to break through something. Imagine something in your life that you would like to be other than the way it is. Imagine something absurd, for instance, or you doing something you have never done before. For example, imagine yourself wearing something you’ve always wanted to wear, or imagine yourself speaking to a neighbor that you really do want to meet, or imagine yourself climbing a tree.

Here’s the real point of this exercise: Holding these imaginings is symbolic of the White Queen in Alice – pure new thought. Consider the Red Queen the aggressive part of your mind that will come to do battle with pure thought, pure imaginings, pure creativity. The Red Queen will always try to destroy a creative gift as the Red Queen represents the opposition of the collective unconscious as well as your external world and your own inner saboteur, so you must meet that force on your inner battlefield. If you can grasp that, then you can understand that the object of imagining the impossible is a multileveled discipline that introduces you to the power of your imagination and creativity as well as to your inner saboteur.

But imagining is ultimately not enough. You have to do more than just imagine. You have to act on something that you imagine. You have to bring it forth and give it life. The “impossible” requires vigilance and dedicated attention and constant courageous choices as well as a willingness to allow your life to change in “impossible” directions – directions transcendent of north, south, east, and west. Imagine that.

How often should you make a list of six impossible things? That all depends on how daring you are and how bold an imagination you have. In this regard, there are no rules. You decide. My list is endless.

Just go for it. Enter the realm of impossibilities. One of the most delicious lines Emily Dickenson ever wrote was: Dwell in impossibilities. She obviously resided down the Rabbit Hole. It’s no wonder she is my favorite poetess.

Love,
Caroline

© 2009 Myss.com - Caroline Myss is a New York Times best-selling author whose books include Anatomy of the Spirit, Why People Don’t Heal and How They Can, Sacred Contacts, and Entering the Castle. Defy Gravity: Healing Beyond the Bounds of Reason, will be published by Hay House in October 2009.
Listen to Caroline every week on www.HayHouseRadio.com

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Total Relaxation Achieved

This morning, I woke up with enough inspiration to add seven pages to my novel in less than an hour, and the exercise has maneuvered me in a state where you guys and gals get the short end of the stick: I'm leaving website update to my other team members today, and will enjoy this day in total relaxation. As a bandaid, here are the pages I added today:

Thursday, October 30th, 2003, 20:21

Somebody lied to me today, but both he and I Know it: Henk told me today his Thursday meetings are going to end, so I won't be able to continue visiting his psychic hour.

 

In case you hadn't guessed, Henk is a psychic. He is the guy who helped me realize about the vow I'd made at age eight, to figure out the Cosmos, and tell everyone who will hear about it. I'm glad he did, especially from the viewpoint of where I am now, finishing the novel that will be the culmination of this life's work.

Henk magically appeared as a friend of a friend of a colleague of my wife, in a moment where I desperately needed him. The first night he told me my soul was aligned someway half outside my body, but he wouldn't fix it. Instead, he had me fix it myself! Make-belief, hypnosis, name it what you want, but that night I felt better than I had in years!

Henk held what he called his Thursday meetings, and invited me to come. No entrance fees or anything, although some of us sometimes brought cookies to go with the ever abundant coffee. When one day I offered him fifty euros for his services, he looked at me and merely asked: “Why are you doing this?” in a non-incriminating manner.

Lying on the table, Henk taught me to recognize the flow of energy throughout my body, and he kept trying to teach me to breathe properly. In that, he seemed not to succeed, or did he: I've always been a shallow on-demand breather. Just couldn't stick to his program of deep, belly-based breathing.

And he asked me to write. Write manually, while in fact I dislike my own handwriting. I did it, but for serious writing like this novel I still stick to hammering it out on the keyboard. Maybe my disregard for his lessons is what eventually got him to call it “Class Dismissed!”, but I don't think so.....

One last experiment I remember around that time happened around that time, was an outing to the local kids farm with my family. I was very occupied with my being, and while the kids played, I was sitting on a bench in the Sun. A fly came up to me, and landed on my right leg, just above the knee. I figured, if my vibration was OK, I'd be able to approach it sincerely, without disturbing it.

I moved my left hand, index finger outstretched, to the vicinity of it's bulging faceted eyes, quite slowly. Do you know how hard it is to approach a common housefly from the front, to within one millimeter of it's head? I did succeed however, and we sat there for seconds, face to 'face'.

Finally, I broke the magic by becoming greedy, and carefully nudged its head. The fly got up, and landed just out of range of my hand, as if to say: “OK, I know your boundaries now....”

When I later told Henk about it, he applauded me for having made so much progress. And when he stopped seeing me on Thursdays, he offered his help for anything I might require later on. Well Henk, I'd love to send you this manuscript, but by now I think you will somehow magically get your hands on it when the time comes....

 

Saturday, April 17th, 2010, 04:42

Today I am somewhat in conflict, but in a good way. I'm going to break my word in a manner of speaking, but only because I know Jolene will forgive me, in a way will even silently applaud me for it!

Just like I Knew Henk, the psychic that helped me at age 35 to remember my vow at age eight, was lying when he told me his Thursday meetings were ending, I just Know Jolene meant just about the complete opposite of what she told me: she asked me not to tell anyone about her life, but I'm sure she'll absolutely not mind that I tell this story anyway, with the proper precautions to achieve what the business end of the world would call 'Plausable Denyability', or in other words, a bit of white lying magic to protect the innocent.

I met Jolene on the train the other day, quite by incident, and very nicely. Somehow, I felt very, very connected to her, even though she turned out to be a person who had an uncanny ability to tell me exactly what kind of a person I am! Or maybe just because of that, because with her, my Know-indicator was on the blink.

But despite the obvious connect, she kept her distance. We did exchange addresses, and over the next few weeks, she phoned me a couple of times, just to hear about how I was doing, and what was up in my life. Jolene felt very awesome, kinda like Selina, even though with her there was this barrier, which both of us kept intact: externally, she was the kind of person I'm not really attracted to, which was aggravated by the fact she tried convince me that our relationship was purely business (which is kind of a dirty word to me).

She claimed she needed help with her computer, and one day, I was invited to provide said help. I traveled there at the appointed hour, and walked the last few hundred meters from the bus to her home, or at least the address she gave me. It was in a well to do neighborhood, all privately owned homes. I rang the bell, and was invited in, only to find myself in a pigsty! I mean, she'd warned me her place was a mess, but I figured it to be like mine sometimes is, for lack of futuristic domestic droids. This however looked far worse, and my first instinct, which I immediately followed, was to offer her to help clean things up a bit. She wouldn't hear of it however, claiming she'd gotten me in there to help her along where the computer was concerned.

So I sat down, amidst a flurry of newspaper clippings, partially opened mail, and other 'messy' things. Nothing really gross, just this consistent wrapping of disorder that I could easily ignore in order to get my work done. She wanted a general cleanup of her computer, like I've done dozens of times for myself and others. Defrag, cleanup, remove unused software, install basic stuff needed to do proper work, you know the drill. So did I, or so I thought...

I'd seen she used Outlook for her mail, but also observed that her Word and Excel where complaining about needing an installer CD to be usable. I usually resort to public domain software wherever possible, and so gave her the option of having OpenOffice installed, instead of those office applications. She agreed, not realising like I should have, that her Outlook was part of the Microsoft Office I was aiming to replace. We chatted on, while she made us something to eat in a kitchen that to me would have been barely unacceptable as starting point for cooking activities.

It was a home-brewn soup, as she called it, quite tasty, but too many unknown ingredients to be on my list of favorite dishes. I somewhat too ardently refused seconds, but we parted as friends. Then, after I'd gotten home, she called that her E-mail no longer worked. Realizing my colossal blunder I gladly took the blame, but was relieved she didn't expect me to get back on the train right that instance. I did offer to attempt a rescue using TeamViewer, so I could take over her system from home, but being a self-proclaimed digifobe, she declined that. She did get another friend to call me later, to dissolve the matter via phone.

But then there's the little incongruities that trigger you to the weirdness of the situation: though Jolene claimed she was afraid of computers, I counted no less than three systems in her home: the computer I needed to work on, an IBM Thinkpad carelessly lying around, and a Compaq DeskPro system in one of the bedrooms. Add to that the question she'd asked me about purchasing Val's old laptop, and I guessed myself in the twilight zone.

Speaking of zones: even though she and I were in the zone constantly, I was very near the edge of my comfort zone while in that place. To me, a home needs to be somewhat cleaner to be comfortable, but it was Jolene's home, so I kept abiding by her will, and tried not to disturb the flurry of newspaper clippings that so cozily surrounded me.

Yesterday, I mailed her to inquire if her friend's rescue operation had succeeded. I got back a mail, so it obviously had: she said she wasn't angry or disappointed, but told me not to mail, phone, or try to contact her otherwise.

Now I could mourn the loss of a friend, but this sounded way more like: “School's over, class dismissed!”

Final sync: I just found out Rush are on their “Time Machine Tour”! How very syncy that they are mentioned in various places in this Now Time Tale......

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