This journey, I have said before, is arduous with much practice required.   The benefits are truly amazing, though… Peak health and physical fitness, high energy, physical and emotional healing, anything is possible really.  The human body, mind and spirit are truly amazing Creations and capable of far more than I have ever given credit…  In my way, I have experienced the many things I have written about and released much of the past that has held me back, moving me into a clear place of presence.

But, the interesting thing about spiritual growth is the fall…

It started as density, as it always does, a blanket of heaviness crept in and I began to identify with it.  It was very insidious at first, on the edge of the field it whispered into my thoughts.  The grass is greener over there…  Have you ever heard that?  That’s a better car, house, job, relationship, lover, friend, _______…  Fill in the blank.  Just a whisper, a hint barely perceptible then it was gone.

Ok… Note to self, when you sense this, STOP everything you are doing and listen.  Listen intently and feel.  Go to the edge of your  energy and account for every bit of consciousness that is you.  Then look beyond.  Feel, feel, feel, then feel some more.  If it comes as that whisper, there is something to clear or your energy has dropped to a lower frequency and it’s time to bring it back up.  Remember, 5-10 minutes now NO MATTER WHAT, will save you hours if not days of work later…  DO IT NOW!!!

That literally is a note to myself…  I am pasting it on my desktop, making wallet cards and perhaps a t-shirt, it is that important to me…

So, the whisper came and I shrugged it off, going back to work on whatever I was doing at the time.  You can imagine getting lost in the day… Meetings, relationships, sundry duties all conspiring in different ways to move me from my center, the knowing of who I am.  I can’t remember how many times the whisper used those opportunities to continue its infiltration, but eventually it was no longer  quiet.  Now a full-fledged energy source, it was attached and sending out cords to get in even deeper.  Slowly, insidiously the chatter widens it’s scope.  The grass is greener, you lack this, that and/or the other thing… your partner doesn’t Love and appreciate you, your fearful of finances, those issues at work, house too small, no job, _______… again with the blank…

And that’s true, the darkness is going to monopolize on whatever inner fears and insecurities are being held onto at whatever level of consciousness.  At the end of the day, having become accustomed to the chatter, I think I just went to bed with a mantra but that was obviously not enough.

to be continued…

Love and Kindness,

Marc

 the Buffalo Diaries